I still can’t believe the day has finally arrived!!!
Like y’all do not understand. I’m still at a loss for words about how everything is moving and going by. I remember the day I got accepted to the Peace Corps in January and having NOOOO idea where I’ll be spending 26 months of my LIFE WAS SO TOUGH! Every single person asked me “so where are you going?” “where will you be staying?” and I had NOTHING TO SAY! Other than, “I’ll be in St. Lucia for the first couple of weeks of training” and the other part of me was like “I really hope people stop asking me so many questions because IDDKKK” lol. Of course, it’s natural to get 500 questions when you embark on a journey like this but my particular post in the Eastern Caribbean is unlike any other Peace Corps post.Everyone gets accepted to their country and immediately knows exactly where they will be placed BUT the EC is not like that. You have training first in St. Lucia then you get placed on one of the other 3 islands on the Eastern Caribbean. So telling people I didn’t know each and every time made me more and more anxious.However I wasn’t uneasy or fearful at all. Ultimately, I knew for a fact that whenever I got assigned permanently was where God wanted me to be. Precisely. I’m not here by accident and my location has already been predestined and came with God’s assurance and His providence.
Whenever I got sent, I strongly feel like I will fall in love because otherwise I’ll still be in ATL, doing something! Lol. The fact that I have made it this far says alooooot and I don’t believe in things happening “by chance” or mere coincidences. My God is way too big for that. I serve a very faithful God who created me uniquely in my mother’s womb and has numbered everyyy single hair on my body so why would I doubt this next chapter of my life? Why would I doubt being in the EC isn’t already ordained down to micro seconds and is being used to serve a greater purpose? God is so soooo detailed- it’s so amazing!! Every single encounter works together and every SINGLE thing/day/person in your life is extremely intentional and vital and it all creates the bigger picture! There is nothing happening by mistake or happening randomly because He already has seen all the days in our life.. it’s just up to us to completely trust our Heavenly Father and know He knows WAY more and wants everything to work out PERFECTLY for us waaay more than we do. He has the end in mind from the beginning and He roots for us every single day! He is creating every single thing to work together for my good. So who was I too worry?
Right? But I still worried...slightly.
Leading up to today, I was feeling slightly emotional. I wrote a post the other day but I haven’t gotten a chance to post it because this week was kinda emotional for me. (But I will post it right after this post.)I was getting worried mainly because many people were dumping their emotions, preferences and feelings on me and in turn, this made me very anxious too! I started to look up the islands and find pros/cons about them and then I made my choice. Initially, I was praying for God to keep me in St. Lucia so every single day I was CONFIDENT i was going to stay. I had no worries. Ya girl just knew she was going to stay here since day 1... HA!
Come Week 2, other Trainees we’re talking about Grenada and how it’s so beautiful and how flights to other places are cheaper from Grenada. “So me: saaaaay what? Cheaper flights, smaller island that’s less packed, easier public transportation, beautiful beaches too (they all got beautiful beaches, Ash)?!!” Also me: Yep that’s exactly where God wants me! Lol. I was like “Well since God put Grenada on my heart then i guess that’s fine” soooo I started praying about going to Grenada and leaving St. Lucia
So with all that being said. TODAY WAS THE DAY I FOUND OUT EXACTLY WHERE I WAS GOING AFTERS MONTHS AND WEEKS OF GOING BACK AND FORTH WITH MYSELF AND MY MIND AND MY HEART AND MY PRAYERS!! Lol
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For the next 26 months I’ll be on the beautiful island of Saint Vincent and the Grenadines!!!!!!!!!! And it’s so interesting because I’ve done NO research on this island and it was the least on my radar so it’s really funny how God works, huh?! Anywho, I started my research and I’m pretty excited to be placed here! I know it’s not by accident at all and I’m happy ill be going with other volunteers I’ve gotten close with during training. ALSO, I'll be leading ART SESSIONS and helping to develop a library at my school!!! How cool is that?!! I LOVE ART! I'm happy I can help with literacy and sprinkle in some creativity too. Ugh, God is good. Not to mention the Grenadines has 32 LAVISSSSHHHH islands I can travel too and I heard it’s to die for!!So all in all, praise God! Half of the anxiety is now GONE! And family and friends, now know exactly where I’ll be. So if you’re serious, go ahead and start looking for them flightzzzzzzz.See y’all soon!
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