Okay first off, I know it’s been weeks! I didn’t want this much time to past between entries but man, LIFE has been truly something. So I apologize for the delay!
I miss y’all
Since I’ve been in Saint Vincent, there’s been lots to adjust too! From the new “vibe”, people, culture shock, the transportation (which is a different story), the language and most importantly the BUGSS. I have been getting attacked by mosquitoes and it’s been extremely trying. Again another story. Hmu for deets lol
BUT today I officially sworn into Peace Corps service and I’m beyond elated because that means training is ALMOST over. Everyone said Pre service training is the worst part about service and it literally sucked. I’ve learned so much so I’m grateful for that but I am ready to put the information in motion. I’m happy to be moving into the next phase of training/service and actually be VOLUNTEER (We’ve been trainees since).
People keep asking do I feel ready?
Well, i thought I was. But I’m not really sure as time gets closer! I am have some jitterssss. School starts like next week almost and I’m getting nervous!! I’m definitely excited but now I’m like wow.. I’m literally about to be a co-teacher and I don’t want to fail the students!! Like am I qualified?!!!! Lol. I have experience working and tutoring kids but i still have NO idea what to expect. I want to truly leave an impact on the students and be someone they can look up to and a source of support so I’m just praying I can be just that! ALSO, Im praying to truly make a difference in literacy because after all, that is my job lol. But beyond literacy, I want to help them gain a new perspective on their reality.
So that’s enough about work stuff!!
On a personal level, I miss my familyyyyy, my babyyyy and my friendssss. I miss my homeeee, my car, MY CHURCH, FUSION on Tuesdays and small group on Thursdays. I really do miss my pre service life and it’s easy to fall into moods thinking about it. So that’s been my struggle recently. Finding a balance of wanting to be home and in a familiar setting versus embracing the unknown, allowing myself to be extremely uncomfortable and put my best foot forward daily.
I am constantly reminding myself about why I’m here in the first place and that’s been helpful to keep my feelings at bay. I trust God is going to continue giving me the strength and perseverance I need to execute each day but I’m also processing the INTENSE vulnerability that comes with being in a foreign land away from everything I’ve ever known. It’s interesting finding out the extent to which God has enabled me to go and I’m excited to see what the future holds.
This wasn’t suppose to be a lengthy post, just updates and apologies!! The next couple of weeks, I should be getting into a more set routine and I’ll be able to write more!! Once school starts and I have a better clue of what my life would look like, I’ll be much more at ease!
I’ll keep y’all posted! Thanks for reading + staying with me!!
Xo, Ash
Here's a picture of my boss,Mr. Cool, and the principal of my school.
And the rest of the EC 91 Vincy volunteers!
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